Decisive pain

It was my decision yet it still hurts.  I'm still sad.  I go through the day filling my time with distractions.  When the day settles down, the darkness returns.  I know it's best.  It has to be done but it doesn't make it any easier.  I know we shouldn't talk.  We need to cut the cord of reliance but it's so hard.  I can't be that cold.  I don't plan on moving on, just past...at least for a little while.  Let's make it an easy transition, let's do it together for us, even though there is no more us.