Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Everyone!  Hope Santa was good to you and brought you lot's of presents!

Xbox 2

I remember being so excited by the "Xbox 2" before launch.  I remember a series of video's I had on my mac that I would watch over and over and over again, scanning the frames for any morsels of information I might have missed.  Here's one of them and just want to put it out there since it's throwback Friday.

The 12 Apps of Christmas

Even Apple is getting into the Christmas spirit!

I'll be home for Christmas...

Where is home?  For me is it in GA?  Is it Denver?  I've called so many places home in my life.  I no longer have the home in which I grew up.  None of them.  For that reason, I've decided home is where my family is.  Where my mom, dad and family are.  Where our Christmas decorations are.  Where the love is.

Things are going pretty well right now.  My inner self is calming down and feeling fulfilled. Work is going well, my friends are doing well.  The house.  Everything.  Couldn't have asked for anything more during this Holiday Season.  It's very timely don't you think?

I'm ready to depart this beautiful city only to land in another.  This time next week I'll be jumping on a plane to see my mom.  We'll have a good Christmas Eve and then a wonderful big family Christmas day.  The time is creeping up on me and my inner child is screaming to get out and play.

For your sake I hope your Christmas list has been sent.  You've been a good little boy or girl.  The plans are set, the house is decorated, presents wrapped, and candles lit.  What ever you do don't forget to put out the milk and cookies.

To Celebrate this joyous time of year, enjoy the video of my favorite singer of Christmas songs and the new festive layout.  Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!

Times they are changing.

So to my embarrassment it has been entirely too long since I've written on here. It's funny how it works out, you do good for a while and are consistent and then life takes over. So what's new?

Well the biggest life change as of late is that I not only closed on my house, but I'm mostly moved in as well. A few odds and ends at the old place and the fridge is being delivered today so I should be set. It was an experience to say the least, something I do not look forward too anytime soon, but soooooo worth it. It's kind of weird actually. I walk in the front door and it still doesn't feel like it's my place. I'm sure it will come in time though.

I still need some furniture to make it all homie but it will all come in time. I'm just excited to be able to buy milk and have a place to put it.

What else is new. Oh yeah, geek time. COD:MW2 came out this week. One word, incredible. I took the day off yesterday to play it and it is amazing. The multiplayer is so diverse and customizable. It will keep me entertained for a very long time.

Well that's pretty much it for now. I'm excited about the upcoming holidays, and look forward to decorating my house. Maybe that's what my next post will be about!

Illumination

The dark has consumed me as I sit in the corner of my round room. The walls tilt as support weakens, dust and rock settle.

I look behind me and realize my shoulders are just to tired to carry the burdens of my past so I turn and walk away. I don't have the energy. The shadows are dark and mocking. Flicker on the wall as the light bounces and fades. I put down my head hiding from what's out their. My heart cracks and splinters. Afraid of what's to come. At the moment of most despair I feel a hand on my shoulder, a warm voice in my heart. The darkness begins to fade.

I stand on my own two feet, the future is my illumination. My beacon in the dark. If I follow this light my path will be clear and the darkness won't touch me anymore.

Decisive pain

It was my decision yet it still hurts.  I'm still sad.  I go through the day filling my time with distractions.  When the day settles down, the darkness returns.  I know it's best.  It has to be done but it doesn't make it any easier.  I know we shouldn't talk.  We need to cut the cord of reliance but it's so hard.  I can't be that cold.  I don't plan on moving on, just past...at least for a little while.  Let's make it an easy transition, let's do it together for us, even though there is no more us.

You're the poison, I'm the dagger...

I took you in last night.  Drank you and reminisced as the cool liquid coated my throat, flowing through me like memories hanging on a cool Fall breeze.  It burns to drink.  It burns to think.  You seep through my vanes.  I sweat you through my pours.

No matter the pain, I come back for more.  Like a child, touching a hot stove.  I call you come.  You pick me up again, with all of my jagged edges.  No matter the pain, you cut yourself again, trusting that I won't scar but I always do.

If I see the poison on the table, next to the dagger, will I pick it up and drink it slowly?  Will you grab the dagger and cut yourself, knowing of the cuts, bruises, scars.  Will we lay there together, hand in hand.  Heart in hands.  Prepared for the pain, expecting it, wanting it.  Our hearts slow, and we drift off, together, forever.

A new season

Introducing a new look for a new season.  I thought to celebrate my favorite season of the year I would change my layout.  Unfortunately the sidebar doesn't match up as well, but that will be a work in progress.  Sort of as a celebration of my favorite time of year and all of the good changes happening right now.  The autumn of the year some believe, is the time of slow decay.  I consider it a time of new beginnings and good changes.  The history of my life reflects this.  So many of my life changes has occurred in the Fall.  My move to Colorado, girls, flying etc.  Here's to a new life.  A toast.

Artificial feelings

artificial seasons . by *m0thyyku on deviantART


I realize these feelings are artificial.  I understand this because of my constant falling off the fence and whichever side I land on depends on the thought, memory, or person I see which sparked the fall.

I look at a letter and think what might life be like?  I see a picture and wish for that life.  A second chance.  With both, or one, or neither.

I see her at my game.  In my house.  In my car.  In my life.  She's/they are not there.  I see another girl and wonder, "could she be the one?"  I look at her figure and wish.  Snapping me back to reality, again confirming that I'm superficial.  I want yet I don't.  It's been a year, two, seven.  Will it end?  Will the mechanical gears inside ever match their teeth again?  Or will they grind away leaving the continuously smooth loop.

On my way.

So I am finally on my way to "my" new house.  After weeks of stressing and searching, I finally was successful on a bid I made on a house.  It's in a nice location, not too far from the light rail, and should have a decent ability to resale when the time comes.

The living room is kind of small, and the kitchen is a little outdated but the master is amazing.  So big.  My dreams are now filled with decorating my new place.  I never thought I would be a fan of HGTV, but it is now my staple channel.

I'm on my way but there is still a long ways to go.  I will keep you updated as the process proceeds.  My current step is getting the loan stuff situated.  My closing date is October 27th.  Just in time for Halloween, my first holiday in my house.

That smell is smoking hair...

It's ok I put out the fire.  Things in my life have been busier as of late then it has in a long time.  Where shall we start?  How about at the beginning.

Sunday August 17th, Greg came over and we loaded up my bike next to his.  The Fall semester started on Monday with myself participating in a hectic schedule.  I worked a split shift coming in at 7 with a plan to get off at 12 to go to the track with Greg.  That morning was a blur and when I finally left the office and sat in Greg's truck, I didn't feel good.  Didn't feel focused, which should have tipped me off. 

We got to the track and started this thing.  Suited up, feeling better.  I could sense Greg's hesitation which was to be expected.  We took it slow at firs but Greg was getting quicker, and so was I.  Feeling much more confident and quicker then I had the time before.

Should have been my second clue.  About midway through the session, my speed increased drastically, even dragged knee a few times.Coming up to the corkscrew, "how am I going to take this, what am I going to do with my body?"  The MISTAKE!  Should have been concentrating on my speed, realized it at the last second, leaned as hard as I could, deciding not to ride off straight as I was concerned at what the bike would do hitting the dirt at 75mph.  The tires lost grip, blaming it on the DOT tires, and lowsided at about 75mph.  The worst part of this whole experience was the sound the cheese grater asphalt made against my poor candy.  The leathers did their job with me getting up spitting dirt.  The guy pulled up with the cart, grabbing my hands asking me to squeeze and "what day is it?"  "August 15th?"  "Close enough."  I was fine, my ego wasn't, and mad was an understatement.

Turns out it was a good thing.  The insurance company covered it and paid off the bike.  I'll purchase a race ready bike in the Winter with the acquired funds.  Getting out from under that loan allowed me to qualify for a much higher home loan.  Which has been the next biggest stress in my life as of late.  Exciting but stressful.  I've put a bid on one place that looks like it's going to fall through because of a lawsuit on the HOA.  If I don't hear any positive news today, I will put a bid on another place.  A place with a huge master bedroom and bath.  So we will see how that works out.  I'm ready for it to just be done and for me to have a place.  Fingers crossed something will be settled this week.

On top of all of this, multiple wedding projects have been going on.  Shooting, editing, delivering, re-editing.  I'm discovering it's not something I really enjoy.

Thats about it.  The flames are extinguished at least for the moment.  I can finally start to think again, now if I could just find a damn house, all would be perfect.  Oh and I dinged 80 W00T!!! 

Blue green eyes...

I met a very nice girl this morning.  She called herself Angie.  She didn't look like an Angie.  She was a nice girl from the country although you wouldn't have known by her dress.  You could tell that the city wasn't her place despite her trying to make it so.  The first thing I noticed was her eyes.  Beautiful eyes.  Maybe it was the metallic green eye shadow, normally a detraction but for her it worked.  I studied her face, pleasant features.  As we were departing she glanced up and or eyes connected.  She smiled and I sheepishly returned it.  I lost her in the crowd, searching the girls as they walked away.  I couldn't find her, maybe tomorrow.  I will look for my Blue green eyed girl...

On the Edge of Distraction

I stand on the edge of distraction.  I gradually make my way to the ledge.  I peer over, take a deep breath, jump.

I ran into an old friend this morning.  One I haven't seen in a very long time.  She looked just as beautiful as I remembered.  Maybe even more so.

Our interaction was brief, with the tension thick enough to divide us.  There is baggage there, as much as I would like to deny it.  Things that get in the way of us actually seeing each other, even if it's just over coffee.

I walked away with an unexpected feeling, of sadness and discontent.  One I've lived internally many of times.  I've discovered that I think she had more of an impact on my life then I gave her credit for.  I sit now wondering if the things that got in the way are gone.  Tiny clues given to me in our momentary interaction.  As I stand on another cliff, on another edge, I realize my regretful mistake.  It is a regret.  Losing a friend.  The things that got in the way are gone, I'm now left with two empty hands and a friend lost.

Maybe one day it will be the way it was.  The way it was supposed to be.

"But thoughts they change 
and times they rearrange
I don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this I know
I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess
you're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain
these thoughts, thoughts of us together


We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when"

Riding a roller-coaster that you could fall off of!

Another busy weekend.  Saturday was spent running errands, driving all over Denver a lot of which was a waste of time.  Had some good company though and was able to acquire a new pair of boots and gloves for the track.  Saturday night was spent filming Ben's wedding.  One thing I can tell you is that I'm getting pretty used to weddings although his proved difficult to shoot.  I was beat Saturday night but had to pick up a few groceries for Sunday.

Sunday came.  Woke up at 7:30 and took a shower.  Made some coffee.  Waited for Greg.  He finally showed up and we proceeded to drain the coolant on the bike.  That actually went pretty smoothly.  Took a little longer then expected so we decided we had to meet Grubbs and Sam at the track.  The real fun came when we loaded the bike in the truck.  Getting it up there wasn't too hard we just looked like a couple monkeys strapping it down.  It was secure enough to make it to the track without anything falling out though.

Made it to the track, paid, and got a quick lesson from Steve on body position, flags and such.  Suited up and jumped on the track.  I wouldn't necessarily say I was nervous, I was just focused.  Followed Grubbs on the track and it was amazing how much different it is.  Things came so much quicker.  Had to focus on speed, breaks, body position, line, etc.  When we got off the first session, I was literally shaking.  Not out of fear, but out of such intense adrenaline.

I started off slow but as the day went on, I was becoming faster and faster.  Had a few close calls, went off the track once at the corkscrew which turned out to be not too big of a deal.  It was a great learning experience and I can't wait to get back out there.

Greg asked, "so how was it?"  "Like the most intense roller-coaster you've ever been on and you could fall off at any moment!"

PNR with the big W!

So last night PNR played our second to last game.  We all know what's going to happen right?  Well to everyones surprise we won.  Granted the other team only had 9 players and we had 10, but that generally doesn't help us too much.  We had solid fielding and some solid bats last night.

In one inning we gave up 5 runs, 3 of which were walk ins.  The last inning things were getting a little sketch, bases loaded and just not locking it up.  I caught a fly-ball to left, throw out at first and then Jason surprising us all with a pop fly catch as pitcher.  It was a great game and a lot of fun.  BW's was a good time after the game with spirits high because of the win.  Here's hoping next week goes as smoothly.

Creep

Today you creeped back in.  All it took was a picture.  Will it ruin my weekend?

Sensitive dependence on initial conditions

"A butterfly's wings might create tiny changes in the atmosphere that may ultimately alter the path of a tornado or delay, accelerate or even prevent the occurrence of a tornado in a certain location."  The Butterfly Effect Theory has always been something that has intrigued me.  The idea of a seemingly small unimportant event effecting the environment on a much grander scale.


As an interested player of Eve Online, that pops in and out of the game sporadically, I'm interested in the games concept in relation to this theory.  With hundreds of thousands of players in one "universe," small actions are bound to affect the universe on a much greater scale.  Take a look at the video and let me know what you think. As a lone wolf, I often feel my effect on the universe is non existent.  I may look at things a little differently now.

Lightly sleeping and dreaming

I've spent a few restless night lately, keeping my self in that in between consciousness, where vivid imagery and physical emotion take hold.  Lightly sleeping and dreaming.

Since the whirlwind weekend where I was too busy for my own good, starting with a work retreat then a wedding shoot, and then Sunday at the track.  The track part is what brought me to this place of little rest.  The last two nights I've dreamt of racing motorcycles.  Over the last 6 months or so, it was never really a question of if, only win.  Sunday however stamped that idea into titanium, antimanium, concreted steel.  I AM GOING TO RACE MOTORCYCLES!

Now it's only a matter of time, just waiting to get the scratch together to get out there.  I'm making progress.  All I really need are a pair of boots.  Hopefully I can make it to the class on August 16th.  Then maybe a track day in Sept.  Then the off season where I will get the rest together.

I only assume these restless nights will get worse as I actually get on the track.  I have a feeling that it will be worth it.

What Is The Very First Thing You Do In the Morning?

What Is The Very First Thing You Do In the Morning?

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I choose the moon!

Happy 40th anniversary America. In commemoration of the historical event I present you with my favorite Frank song accompanied by beautiful Nasa footage and JFK's race to the moon speech.

Would I answer?

a phone... by ~Gazo on deviantART

If you called tomorrow would I answer?  I don't know, maybe.  Seems like yesterday.  If we talked would it feel like yesterday?  I don't know, maybe.  If I saw you would I remember you like yesterday?  I don't know, maybe.  I look around and remember what I had but gave up.  I see what I want but gave up.  It's funny how things seem clearer when your vision is gone.  Why do I go back to you.  I run across the ocean's in my head.  The hole never filling up.  In the shadowy silhouette, it's your outline that appears.  Like a dream or nightmare, it's your skin I see.  It's your hair I see.  It's your color I see.  They all look the same, like in a movie, where the main character flashes to what they want to see.  I see you with someone and am filled with jealousy.  I hope when you turn around it's your pretty eyes staring at me.  Your perfect smile.  You turn, and the light opens.  The walls fall, glass shatters.  If you called tomorrow would I answer?  Butterflies of hesitation.  I look at the name, and I answer.

A slice of spicy hot chicken and turkey pepperoni

"Where'd my two days go, come on earth, spin backwards and give them back!"

It's was a good busy weekend starting Friday with an apartment warming party at my friend Evan's place.  After a treacherous walk through the rain soaked streets of downtown Denver we arrive and socialized with a good group of people.

Woke up early Saturday to go for a ride with Greg and Dan.  As always I was a little late to the meeting when I did finally arrive we hung out for a bit because of the parking lot being packed because of the Mile High Nationals at Bandamere.  Got a free 180 energy drink which wasn't very good.  We rode north through Golden up in the hills.  It was a fun and new route marred only by the slow speeds because of the slow traffic.  Riding through Black Hawk/Central City was pretty neat.  It's amazing how things look different under the visor of a helmet.  We finally arrive in Idaho Springs where I had to use the little boys room and Dan needed to um...stretch his legs because of the previous nights activities.  We ate some excellent pizza at Beau Jo's and the went home.  The night was fun as Thuy came over with home made egg rolls.  We hung out watched a movie and played a little bit of video games.

I woke up entirely too early Sunday to meet Camille and her husband at High Plains Raceway for RMVR races.  It was hot and long but a fun day.  The most interesting event of the day was the remote control Blue Angels Jet having a rough landing and losing it's nose wheel as seen above.  I started up WoW again last night and Jesse, Dan, Ray and I ran Utgarde Keep.  I'm now 33% through 73 and am excited to nerd it up again.

That's about it for my weekend, what did everyone else do?

Webcam Music Video

This is perhaps one of the coolest music video's I've ever seen and the song is pretty good too.

SOUR / 日々の音色 (Hibi no Neiro) MV from Magico Nakamura on Vimeo.

Optimus I'm So Disappointed in You

You chose the Pre over the iPhone? 

Sunset at dinner

At an upscale place called Cobalt

Momma on the deck relaxing before dinner

View from the beach house

Salt water, Sun tan, and Frank Sinatra

Today was the first day of the "family reunion".  So far it's been great.  I woke up at about 8 to a home cook breakfast.  A bacon and egg sandwich.  Then we departed the condo for the beach house where we met everyone and played in the ocean.  It was great seeing Heather, Matthew, Aunt Martha Ellen and everyone else.

We played in the ocean for a bit where I made sure to wear plenty of sunscreen.  We ate a little lunch, nothing like southern ham sandwiches and then played in the water again.  We laughed and joked and just floated in the water.  It's amazing how much fun you can have just floating along in the ocean with good company.  Kind of like The Little Mermaid except in reverse.  After we were all pruned it was time to get out and head home to get ready for Hollywood night.  We are all dressing up as famous people.  We are even having the Oscars, or the "bama" version at least.  Now I must retreat and put on my Frank costume.  I will report on the evening's activities a little later.

Tethered

As I sit on the floor of gate B22 at the Dallas/Ft. Worth Airport, writing this tethered to my iPhone 3GS, I reminisce about two years ago.  Why two years ago?  Well two years ago is when cell phones as we know it changed.  Two years ago, the iPhone was released.  Back then we didn't have touch screens, apps stores, and fully functioning internet devices.  The iPhone changed all that.  It changed what a cell phone is to a person.  It has become an entertainment device unlike any other.  I dare you to be bored with an iPhone in hand.  There has been many other similar devices released but nothing nearly as "smart" as Apple's iPhone.

I remember sitting in a similar position two years ago for an entirely different reason.  I wasn't waiting for a flight to a family reunion.  I was waiting for the first of these devices.  The first iPhone.  I was so excited and my excitement was justified.  It was the greatest tech gadget I had ever laid my hands on.  Despite it's many deficiencies, I was perfectly content.  Their were wish's I had for the device, most of which has been addressed.  I listened to one of Eplesauce's podcast which focused on the original iPhone a couple month's ago and everything we talked about that we thought would make the device better has been fixed.

So now I write this connected to my new 3GS.  The newest revision of the famed iPhone.  I know that this will be a consistent cycle one that will probably never change as long as Apple keeps making iPhones.  The changes aren't all that big but they are enough to make me want to upgrade.  So for now I write with and about the iPhone 3GS.  Maybe next year, early summer, you will be reading a post about the iPhone 4G, with video iChat, and the ability to solve world hunger, and the energy crisis.

One year ago...

So as I'm still undecided on whether or not I'm going to pick up the new iPhone 3gS, I am excited about all of the hoopla.  So as a way of celebrating the launch, I thought I would post a video of the original 3g launch which I was fortunate enough to be apart of.  So enjoy.  Oh and PS, if you look closely at the beginning of the video, you will see me standing at the counter when the two gentlemen are being interviewed.

Always in the shadow of the giant.

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Slipstream...

My first attempt for the Hyundai Genesis contest.  Let me know what you think.

Click link for music.

A loss which is a win

So I'm extremely sore today.  Both hands hurt.  Not entirely sure why, maybe it was the couple of balls I caught bare handed.  My chest has a perfect circle on the right peck from stopping the pop fly with my chest then my hands, my legs are sore.  But...it was all worth it a blast.  PNR lost last night 12 to 5.  For us that's a win especially compared to the 21-6 score last week.

"Your lipstick, his collar...don't bother angel!

So I've had a busy week thus far.  Referring not only to this week but also the past weekend.  The weekend was great.  I hung out with Greg all weekend because we worked on my bike.  Saturday, Greg and Dan came over to help me install my new Yosh exhaust.  First I treated them to lunch for helping me and then we got down to business.  We took the bike apart which had it's issues, mostly with taking off and replacing the headers.  Those damn screws were hard to get to. Dan left right as we removed the stock headers, and then Greg and I put on the new headers and exhaust.  We were both pretty dirty and tired so we decided to wait and put the PCV on Sunday and scrap going to the race.

Greg left, and Marc, Eric and I went to Star Trek saturday night.  It was an awesome movie, so entertaining.  I already can't wait for the sequel.

On a rainy Sunday morning, Greg came back over and we installed the fuel controller.  That was an issue in and of itself.  After scratching our heads for a while we decided to completely take off the tank which made life much easier.  Paco stopped by for about and hour which was nice.  As we all were working on the bike, we were witness to a domestic violence dispute...WTF?  I thought Lone Tree was a nice part of town.  The girl was ok but the cops were called and craziness ensued.  We remained in our little bubble of niceness aka the garage, and did our thing.

We got the FI installed and started her up.  Man did she sound good.  All in all I was pretty proud of what we were able to accomplish.  Both of us are mechanically challenged so it felt good.  Gave us the confidence to try other things.

Tonight is PnR softball and I'm excited.  Always a good time, and hopefully we do better.  That's all I have for now.  As I fight off nostalgia as always, I put my mind into other things.  Primarily to distract myself.  That's ok right?  Ignoring your thoughts?  Especially if they are potentially damaging?

Enough procrastinating!

So I've put off updating my blog for a while now because I was waiting until I got my post cruise write up done.  I've decided to stop and will eventually get that up but I need to update in the meantime, so be on the look out.

Last night was the first game for PNR of the season.  In normal PNR fashion we lost 21 to 6.  Not really unusual for us, giving away far too many runs with sloppy fielding.  Felt like we were playing volleyball the way we were bobbling the ball.  Oh well it was fun.

The night ended with us going to BW's where Greg and I had some catching up to do.  He unfortunately had to leave in a rush because he received bad news over the phone.  I'll be praying for you buddy.  BW's ended my plan for not eating out once this week and tonight is Bike Night at a joint only two minutes from my house.  I've been wanting to try it for a while so we'll see what happens.  Hopefully Greg will be able to make it.  We have our motorcycle racing plans we need to put into motion.

So for now that is all.  Time for me to get back to work.  Be on the look out for my cruise write up and pictures.  Lots and lots of pictures.

F-22 getting killed by T-38!

This guys was either really good, or really lucky.

Disconnecting...

This is me disconnecting...Next time I log on I will have had a wonderful week, and post the accounts of that week.  My blogs have been checked one last time, email's done.  I'm out.  See you guys soon.

Countdown to Cruise

So I realized today how excited for the cruise I actually am.  So much so I started planning my next trip, but I'll get to that momentarily.

As the blur known as my week progressed I realized how much work I actually need to do before I leave, and how with the time available it will be practically impossible, so I've settled in a place of acceptance.  Accepting that everything will not get done.  What will get done?  Glad you asked.  I will present my long overdue proposal tomorrow and after, I'm sure to feel fulfilled.  I also hope to take my car into the body shop so it will get fixed while I'm away.  Lastly on the agenda for tomorrow is for me to present my "baby sitting" skills to my friends mom to provide her comfort with whom he will be with on the cruise.

As for the rest of the week?  On the top of my priority list is to get my haircut, go tanning, and sign my lease for my new apartment.

I had an amazing evening filled with fun.  First off I met some friends for dinner at the first bike night of the season.  I felt a little rusty riding "candy" but am confident that it will all come back soon.  After a good time chatting it up, I went to another friends house for our weekly Lost night.  Man that show just keeps getting better and better.

And now I'm tired, so it is time for me to retire...you thought I forgot didn't you.  I say nay nay.  So I decided today that I will be spending my next Christmas in Europe.  Where in Europe?  Not entirely sure.  I know I'm going to Paris.  I'd like to go to London, Germany, Italy, and Spain, but we will see where I end up as I will be gone for a little over 7 days.

Who will I be going with?  Again, I'm not sure.  If I end up going alone that's fine and almost preferred.  I think this is just something I need to do.  Something for me.  As cliche as it sounds, a way for me to find myself.

And now it is time for me to find my pillow.  Goodnight all.

Happy Saint Patrick's Day

To celebrate I'm posting a video for The Black Donnellys with music from Snow Patrol. The show is great if you haven't seen it. Unfortunately it didn't last long but it was good while it lasted.

Oh and I know Snow Patrol is Scottish not Irish, but it goes with the show. Heck if we can wear green instead of St. Patrick's Blue, then I can post a Scottish band for and Irish video.

Some cool artwork

So I think I'm going to order a print to hang up on my wall.  I'm thinking the red CCCP one.http://www.bawidamann.com/

The Moment...

So as I watched The Break-Up last night I noticed something.  I've written before about how movies speak to me and this one was no different.  There is one scene in the movie which stuck out above any other.  The two main characters after struggling throughout the entire movie, and they come to that single most important moment in a relationship.


The moment which will effect the rest of your life.  The edge of the blade, where you will fall.  Neither is right, it is fate.  This moment I have lived and I feel that it will at some point happen to us all.


You have been given your opportunity yet you blew it.  You have realized your mistake so you let it all out.  Everything.  Everything you have ever wanted to say but never did.  The words that you should have used for her, to show her how much you care, how much she means to you.  You look into her eyes hoping that she sees you.  You have nothing left.  Your cards are on the table.  Your chips are out.  Will it be too late.  You have to try.


As she begins to cry, you see it.  Who is this person.  Is this how you were.  The tears are empty.  She knows it is over.  So do you.  She gave you your chance.  "No it can't be!"  I can change her mind...please listen to me...I've never been so sincere.  She tells you to leave.  No wait.  Let me just hold you, you will feel it.  You will feel me.  Please leave.  But...  GET OUT!!! ...  Ok, where do you go from here.  How hard can you try.  How much is it worth.  Is love really enough?  


As you turn and walk out the door, as the shades close, you see the sun setting.  The rooms getting darker.  You look one last time into her eyes, yes you will see her again but this is the last time you will ever see HER.  You see her heart breaking.  You see her wanting to change the way it ends.  She wants it to never end.  But it's too late.  She's not in control.  Her hearts in an empty room with a shadow.  A box locked tight, and you will never again have the key.

iDance!

Steve Wozniak was on "Dancing With The Stars" last night and he got pretty beat up.  I actually thought he did pretty well, probably better then I could have done.  Always having a good attitude, the upsetting comments didn't seem to affect Woz too much.  Woz you will always have a special place in our heart.

Classic...

Devil-may-care navy pilot Pete Mitchell (Tom Cruise) is sent to Miramar Naval Air Station for advanced training. Here he vies with Tom Kasansky (Val Kilmer) for the coveted "Top Gun" award. When not so occupied, Mitchell carries on a romance with civilian consultant Charlotte Blackwood (Kelly McGillis). Shaken up by the death of a friend, Mitchell loses the Top Gun honor to Kasansky. Worried that he may have lost his nerve, Mitchell is given a chance to redeem himself during a tense international crisis involving a crippled US vessel and a flock of predatory enemy planes. The story wasn't new in 1986, but Top Gun scored with audiences on the strength of its visuals, especially the vertigo-inducing aerial sequences. The film made more money than any other film in 1986 and even spawned a 1989 takeoff, Hot Shots. An Academy Award went to the Giogio Moroder-Tom Whitlock song "Take My Breath Away."

It happened in Monterey...

Anyone who knows me or reads this blog will know how much I love Sinatra.  No I don't have the Rat pack poster in my room that circulated and became popular a couple years ago.  I have a classic picture which I've only seen once, in my room.  I don't like Ol' Blue Eyes because it's the trendy thing.  I like him for his music.

I have my own opinions on his personal life, or at least the life portrayed to the public.  But...I do love his music. It's classic.  It speaks to me.  Brings me to places and times which I've never been.  It makes me feel close and attached to these times.  I do have my favorites.  They put me to sleep.  They bring me up when I am down.  Songs that I can sing too.

Today, I will leave you with a new one that I've recently become attached too.  It takes you to a physical place, and event.  If you've never heard it look it up.  I think you will enjoy it as much as I do.

Never say never.

The official version of Never Say Never.

A song for me.

I heard a song this morning written for me.  The song was "Never Say Never" by The Fray  The song writer must have met me at some point and listened to my life story.  I don't remember this happening, but the song was so perfect there is no other explanation.  I have found no other medium as effective as music to relate to me.  Film come's close.  Very close, but the fact that you can sum up my life in 4 minutes and 16 seconds is amazing.

They say there is no new story.  It's the retelling with different people, places, times, etc., which makes the story unique.  Depressing, I know.  So who else has lived my life?  Dave?  Frank?  Jack?  The Fray?  Andrew?  Well at least we're not alone.    

Frank, you always make me feel better...

A social introvert!

We are a social generation.  Though the days of coffeeshops and mall stops are no more.  Yes these social hubs still exist, and they still are used as they always had.  Today however I can talk, chat, and see anyone in my social network, regardless of physical location.

With web 2.0 applications such as Facebook and Myspace, we can keep in touch in ways previously unimagineable.  I can talk to my best friend who I haven't seen in over 10 years, while also sending a message to my mom in North Carolina.  I can even maintain a constant connection through all of my social networks, relaying realtime status updates as they happen.

Taking the constant connection one more step, entering in the fray, cell phones.  With the platform coming closer to a computer then a phone, applications and features are being built to specifically address social networking.  Facebook, Myspace, and Twitter applications are available for the iPhone, G1, and the Blackberry, and with the inclusion of gps, many more apps utilize goetagging of realtime updates.  Raising the stakes by eliminating the safety of anonymity.

I can find users within 25 miles telling me what movie they are watching, or seek out the opinions of these users on which reatuarante I should eat at, all without my computer.  Directly from my phone.  Interacting realtime with strangers.

Which begs the question how social are we really?  With so many outlets available to us, yet none of which actually tapping into that physicality which makes us human.  That one piece that is still missing.  The touch, the smell, the feeling of someone else.

Remember the movie Crash.  What's it going to take to pull us out of the virtual reality, and back in the real reality.  I will leave you with that, as my finger tips are sore from typing this on my iPhone.

Old familiar feelings!

They've been gone so long.  Why now do you come back.  I know why.

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Dating is easy right?  All you have to do is get two people together with matching pieces.  Pieces of the same puzzle.  People on the same page.  With billions of people as possibilities, should it really be so hard.  Far to often the problem is the page we're on within ourselves.  Maybe it's the wrong book.  Let's all take a second, and remove ourselves from the book club.  Let the limited edition arrive, when it's time.

Ding~71!

So after 11+ hours of being 70, I finally lvled to 71 last night.  It felt really amazing and the best part is, that not once did I ever get bored in that 11 hours.  I've finally discovered that it's not how fast you get here or there, but how much fun you have while you're doing it.  I think the content in Northrend is really inspired and that definitely  helps, but I'm also not the player I was when I was in my 30's.  Is it because I do see the end?  Is it because I know I won't have another 10 lvl's for a year or two?  Or is it me.  It doesn't really matter actually.  All that does is that I'm really enjoying WoW.  I also think it has probably saved me a little money because I have not been buying other games.  Win, win all around.

It was also the first time I've completed Utgarde Keep .  I died twice which only show's me I still have a lot of learning to do but the PUG I was with was very nice and helpful.  I also rolled on an excellent piece of gear that was a great upgrade and huge improvement over what I was using .

Also I do plan on writing a post Holiday post, descussing my Christmas break.  Just need to stop being lazy and write it.  I plan on that this week.

Macworld today!

As any true Mac geek would be, my excitement fills me.  I'll be following the event on every major communications outlet.  You can follow along on my Twitter feed for highlights.